haha.lol. some parts of my college life!

I Love My Sister faye.;))

Well, she isn’t my REAL sister so to speak, she’s my best buddy I’ve known for years and has been dealing with my ups and downs and my incessant harassment too. I decided to call her my sister because I won’t share my darkest secrets with anyone else except for her (and also the BFF I mentioned in my previous entry).
She brings joy to my life and whenever we hang out, both of us will definitely encounter really weird incidents and we’ll laugh about it the whole day, point is, had I not met her in 2007, I am not sure if I will ever meet someone like that in my life, someone whom I will trust, someone whom I will stand up for, someone who backs me up, someone who will cheer me up and someone…
Who will tell me every time with the message like..
“Good morning, fuck off! pakyu! ukinnam! bobo! tanga! gagu!.”
I love you sister, I really do. =)

To You,

I don’t think I’ll ever say this to your face, but I love you. At least, I think I do. You put me through so much pain but you don’t even know it. I’m always there for you, I’d do almost anything you ask. Yet, you don’t appreciate all of that. It’s like I don’t matter to you at all. It’s like you’re using me. What hurts to most is that you only see me as a friend and nothing more. Maybe even less than a friend seeing as you treat me like crap. You’re sweet to me usually only when you want something. You even have the nerve to say that you ‘love’ me. If there’s nothing you want then you ignore me, you push me away. As much as I want to keep holding on, I know that I’ll eventually have to let go. You’re only going to hurt me. I’m not sure if you’re even worth the wait and the pain I have to endure. Do you know that my smiles are almost never genuine? And it’s because of you. You, the one who hurts me. You, the one who doesn’t appreciate me. You, the one who will never love me. One day, I’ll show this to you, so you can finally see how much pain you put me through. And maybe, just maybe, you’ll change your ways. I hope for your sake and the sake of many other girls, that you do. Just know that I’m crying as I type this, that my heart is slowly breaking. But I’m going to let go. I promise.
Love, Me.