Oh Dear Little Cien Of Mine

I’m not sure if I’ve ever written a letter to you on this blog. But, I kinda hope one day you will see this. . .

Dear Lil Cien,

You are something special.  You make me a big ball of mushy emotions.  I thought that crazy emotional rollercoaster was going to end after my pregnancy but, it just made it’s way into my personality, it’s here to stay.

I Love you, I more than Love you. I don’t know what that is but, that’s what I feel.  The joy you bring to my life is just not measurable because it’s constantly growing.  I had NO clue that the love would run this deep within me.  No clue.  I knew I’d love you, you’d be mine!

With each passing monts we spend together I grow more proud of you.  You learn something new each day. You grow smarter and smarter, funnier and funnier.  I hope you realize how much you are loved by every single person that has ever met you! That is something special.

When I was pregnant with you I had So many fears.  The biggest one being that I would be a bad Mother.  Like, I wouldn’t know what to do with you.  Irrational fears, “how is he going to learn how to sit up, roll over, crawl, talk, etc.”  Every time you master a new skill I feel like it is a small victory for me as your Mother. I am your teacher, I feel so overwhelmed with happiness when you learn something new.

You began walking last month with 3 steps, out of no where.  It was one of the most amazing things I’ve ever watched you do.  I was filled to my eyebrows with happy emotions.  I hope you could feel how proud of you we were.  I think you did, you were very proud of yourself!  I look forward to many more "cien-on-balls with you my sweet sweet babycien.

It’s amazing the love I have for you.  You thoroughly embarrassed me last week, and now I can’t stop gushing over you! You’ve really got a hold on me.

Every time I hear this song, I wail up with tears.  It’s for you. rockin'roll baby! I feel like she wrote this song for me to sing to you with soft tune(not rock) at night when I put you to bed.

CIEN, you are such a lucky girl. You have only one  parent but still i adore you, Ill do anything for you, and that you truly are the center of my universe.  EVERYTHING comes second to you.  I hope you grow up knowing that what you’ve got is special.  Not every child receives the love you do.

I LoveYou,

mama=)